"How come that time was different? What switch got flipped?
I don't know. Grace. A miracle. There was a radical, radical grace that day."
I just told my story on a podcast. Like a 50-minute podcast.
Whoa, I talked a lot. Like a lot.
I'm super nervous to share this with the world, but here it is. Even though I've been writing publicly about my recovery since about six months in, this is the first time I've spoken about a lot of things, including my last day one (God willing).
The Unruffled is a podcast by Sondra Primeaux and Tammi Salas. These two amazing ladies explore the intersection of creativity and recovery (such a great topic), and were kind to ask me to appear on the show. In addition to my story we talked about my passion for critical thinking around the media narrative around alcohol, cultural issues around sobriety in the South, parenting and creativity, and asking for help.
Also I announced I'm writing a book. (Buried lede.)
This story takes on significance for many reasons, including the fact that Sondra was the person who showed up for me when I was at my lowest bottom in a hotel room in Austin, Texas. (I wrote a little bit about that day and our first exchange here).
I'm so grateful to have this conversation with Sondra and Tammi. I will say that after we recorded I thought of many people I should have mentioned (like how crucial my sponsor is) and points I wanted to make or wish I made more clearly. But that's an old story -- the perfectionist. Bless her heart.
As always, as I share, speak and write, it's from where I am on that day. Recovery evolves each day, and what I shared in July 2017 may be different from what I share in August 2017. I'm a work in progress, thankful for the radical grace extended to me every day. Radical, disruptive, powerful, life-changing grace that comes through a very hard fight.